The Other Women Who Live Inside My Skin
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indigo_rose99The Traveler
She keeps to herself. She always has a book out, is doing something on her PDA or computer. She rarely speaks, even to her seatmates, unless drawn out by a shared traveling calamity. Unless announcements are likely to be critical, she has headphones on, seemingly oblivious to everyone around her.
She dresses strictly for comfort and convenience with zero acknowledgment to fashion. Her clothes are loose, soft, and have many pockets.
She glares at noisy children and people loudly sharing their boring life story on their cell phones. She moves quickly to take advantage of traveling opportunities -- other flights going more quickly to the same destination, an open bin, an early oppurtunity to board, an empty row of seats on a long flight... She doesn't like people touching her and is very startled when people speak to her. She is slow to recognize even very familiar faces.
The Teacher
She is outgoing and friendly. She speaks enthusiastically to everyone and strongly encourages them to participate. She shares anecdotes of her life and job. She is eager to talk about the aspects of her favorite software that are cool or fun, even if it is slightly off the class focus. She stays up to date on the latest version of the software, and often shares new features she has learned about, encouraging others to explore and share the neat things they discover.
Her clothing is forgettably fashionable in subdued colors. It is feminine without showing any extra skin. Her clothes have high necklines and she often wears layers in case things rise or gape open.
She arrives early and is happy to stay late for questions. She is always ready to give a student a lift (not a ride!) and pokes fun at her driving skills in strange places. When traveling, she asks questions about things to do and see locally.
She is thrilled when her students tease her; instead of being offended, she believes that it is a sign that students trust her. She is the kind of person who would smile at small children and pat dogs.
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The conflict for me is when these two women try to expand outside of their roles... For instance, I've tried traveling with another person or other people. It throws me off. The Traveler doesn't quite know how to behave.
I'm terrified that someday the Teacher won't kick in on time. Sometimes I have to start a class without her. Seriously, 5 or 10 minutes will pass and I will realize that she hasn't kicked in yet... It is terrifying. I'm not prepared to deal with a classroom, much less do a decent job.
She keeps to herself. She always has a book out, is doing something on her PDA or computer. She rarely speaks, even to her seatmates, unless drawn out by a shared traveling calamity. Unless announcements are likely to be critical, she has headphones on, seemingly oblivious to everyone around her.
She dresses strictly for comfort and convenience with zero acknowledgment to fashion. Her clothes are loose, soft, and have many pockets.
She glares at noisy children and people loudly sharing their boring life story on their cell phones. She moves quickly to take advantage of traveling opportunities -- other flights going more quickly to the same destination, an open bin, an early oppurtunity to board, an empty row of seats on a long flight... She doesn't like people touching her and is very startled when people speak to her. She is slow to recognize even very familiar faces.
The Teacher
She is outgoing and friendly. She speaks enthusiastically to everyone and strongly encourages them to participate. She shares anecdotes of her life and job. She is eager to talk about the aspects of her favorite software that are cool or fun, even if it is slightly off the class focus. She stays up to date on the latest version of the software, and often shares new features she has learned about, encouraging others to explore and share the neat things they discover.
Her clothing is forgettably fashionable in subdued colors. It is feminine without showing any extra skin. Her clothes have high necklines and she often wears layers in case things rise or gape open.
She arrives early and is happy to stay late for questions. She is always ready to give a student a lift (not a ride!) and pokes fun at her driving skills in strange places. When traveling, she asks questions about things to do and see locally.
She is thrilled when her students tease her; instead of being offended, she believes that it is a sign that students trust her. She is the kind of person who would smile at small children and pat dogs.
...
The conflict for me is when these two women try to expand outside of their roles... For instance, I've tried traveling with another person or other people. It throws me off. The Traveler doesn't quite know how to behave.
I'm terrified that someday the Teacher won't kick in on time. Sometimes I have to start a class without her. Seriously, 5 or 10 minutes will pass and I will realize that she hasn't kicked in yet... It is terrifying. I'm not prepared to deal with a classroom, much less do a decent job.
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Date: 2007-02-16 02:55 am (UTC)ohhhhyeah. traveling with
I'm terrified that someday the Teacher won't kick in on time. Sometimes I have to start a class without her. Seriously, 5 or 10 minutes will pass and I will realize that she hasn't kicked in yet...
for some reason, this reminds me of that scene in "the cutting edge" where doug is puking before they skate; kate is freaking out, and he tells her he always gets nervous before he skates, but don't worry, it always goes away after 5 or 10 minutes. which doesn't help her much, given their routine is only 3 minutes long...
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Date: 2007-02-16 05:17 am (UTC)(on the "the cutting edge") *laugh* Yep, just like that, but my routine is usually 5 days long.
Periodically I get presentation-type feedback from little short presentations where she never got a chance to kick in, and they say things like, "too soft" or "speak louder" or "not assertive enough". *laugh* Clearly the regular me and not the Teacher.