change, still happening
Feb. 15th, 2018 07:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
indigo_rose99Ack! Ack. Ack. Ack.
I talked to my current boss. He offered me a wad of money to stay. I said yes, I want to stay. Knowing that I had yet to talk to T about it.
T wants me to take the new job. He suggested I call a friend. I called ovrclokd. She was awesome, as usual. She offered some very practical advice. I polished up my job-vs-job list and then slept on it.
This morning I woke up with the realization that if I don't take the new job, I will spend the rest of my life wondering about the opportunity not taken. I know how the path at my current job goes -- I've been in this job 7 years. But the unknown that scares me about this new job? I have no idea if I'll like or hate it. And I shouldn't say "no" to new just because it is new and strange. Hating the unknown and change and risk doesn't mean I shouldn't do it. Plus if I take the safe and known path... I will respect myself just a little less. If I take the new job and hate it? Well, I tried. I took a risk, and risks sometimes turn out badly. Taking the new job is the decision I can best live with.
Curse words. I don't WANNA do this. ...Starting it now.
I talked to my current boss. He offered me a wad of money to stay. I said yes, I want to stay. Knowing that I had yet to talk to T about it.
T wants me to take the new job. He suggested I call a friend. I called ovrclokd. She was awesome, as usual. She offered some very practical advice. I polished up my job-vs-job list and then slept on it.
This morning I woke up with the realization that if I don't take the new job, I will spend the rest of my life wondering about the opportunity not taken. I know how the path at my current job goes -- I've been in this job 7 years. But the unknown that scares me about this new job? I have no idea if I'll like or hate it. And I shouldn't say "no" to new just because it is new and strange. Hating the unknown and change and risk doesn't mean I shouldn't do it. Plus if I take the safe and known path... I will respect myself just a little less. If I take the new job and hate it? Well, I tried. I took a risk, and risks sometimes turn out badly. Taking the new job is the decision I can best live with.
Curse words. I don't WANNA do this. ...Starting it now.
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Date: 2018-02-15 10:13 pm (UTC)