Changed my mind. Want to go home.
Feb. 4th, 2014 10:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
indigo_rose99Ugh. Week 2 (of 4), Day 3. I am so done with this.
Which is a supremely terrible attitude for the instructor.
I should be energetic. Enthusiastic. Bouncy. Encouraging questions.
I'm trying. The exhaustion is dragging at me. Some of it is probably jet lag. But if I managed to get 10 hours of sleep a night, I could overcome that. I don't. They kept me late yesterday. According to my sleep tracker, I got 7 hours 24 minutes of sleep last night. It also claims I was out like the dead, hardly moving at all. Except, of course, when housekeeping tried to enter my room to make up my bed and woke me out of a sound sleep. Yeah, I forgot the 2 DND signs on the door.
When I'm home and away from this, my focus on sleep while I'm trying to teach is always surprising to me. But when I'm in the middle of it, it become a huge obstacle. Sleep translates to energy. Right now the world is grey with tired fuzz. And it is only lunch time. I have 4 more hours to go.
My students are no longer answering questions, even direct ones. I'm sure this is somehow my fault. I'm sure there is a way to fix it. Now if I could only get my brain to WORK.
*beating head on desk*
Which is a supremely terrible attitude for the instructor.
I should be energetic. Enthusiastic. Bouncy. Encouraging questions.
I'm trying. The exhaustion is dragging at me. Some of it is probably jet lag. But if I managed to get 10 hours of sleep a night, I could overcome that. I don't. They kept me late yesterday. According to my sleep tracker, I got 7 hours 24 minutes of sleep last night. It also claims I was out like the dead, hardly moving at all. Except, of course, when housekeeping tried to enter my room to make up my bed and woke me out of a sound sleep. Yeah, I forgot the 2 DND signs on the door.
When I'm home and away from this, my focus on sleep while I'm trying to teach is always surprising to me. But when I'm in the middle of it, it become a huge obstacle. Sleep translates to energy. Right now the world is grey with tired fuzz. And it is only lunch time. I have 4 more hours to go.
My students are no longer answering questions, even direct ones. I'm sure this is somehow my fault. I'm sure there is a way to fix it. Now if I could only get my brain to WORK.
*beating head on desk*
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Date: 2014-02-05 02:28 pm (UTC)I feel ya.
I'm headed in to see the doctor to talk about my sleep problems, actually. (According to my sleep study, I don't have apnea. I just happen to take four hours to get to REM.)