None of us will get out alive

[indigo_rose99]

How soon? The reminders are all there.

Recently I spent a week helping T treat the sites where a doctor removed two moles. Not malignant. Since then, I convinced him to let me make full body scan appointments for both of us. That is about three weeks in the future.

Last week (and the week before) I drove 4 hours round trip two non-consecutive days to spend time with B, my college roommate. Nothing like stage 4 colon cancer at our (young) age to snap life into perspective. I washed dishes, did laundry, swept, dusted, played card games with her, drove her on medical and non-medical errands... and talked. I have missed so many last chance conversations with other important-to-me people already, I won't let these go.

Next week she starts chemo.

I am caught between how-could-this-happen denial and what on earth am I going to say at her funeral?

Comments

[tiger-stripes.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.. that's hard. Btw, if you need to stay with her instead of coming out to California in January, I understand.

*hug* Hang in there, and call if you need.

[indigo-rose99.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

Everything is playing by ear with reference to B right now. We will see how she is doing during her first few chemo sessions. I will start making solid plans for January in early November. *hug for you*

[fraeuleinchen.livejournal.com]

You are strong and have such a good perspective... I send a hug, too!

[raaga123.livejournal.com]

I think it's wonderful that you're doing that -- I wish everybody in B's situation had a friend like you. Hugs! (More hugs at random intervals or on request.)

[ovrclokd.livejournal.com]

*hug* i'm sorry she (and you!) are going through this, but glad that you're able to make the time to spend these days with her...